º©° ~ "+" ☆.: ShaN.RuI :.☆ "+" ~ °©º

2008-07-27T21:16:00.003+08:00

This song is so just for the 2 of us =]

对不起　刚才我　是不是听错
还是我　想太多　想到了昏头
天气不错　开了窗吹走脸红

进一步　退一步　都害怕打破
更不想　再和你　永远做朋友
给你线索也给我勇敢藉口

下定决心　沉默
想让沉默为我们追究
你和我　这一刻　无声的　而交流
却突然震耳欲聋

一字一句一瞬间　走了火
一天一点一转眼　入了魔
忘了我从什么时候
忘了你为什么能够让我
一步一步走火入魔和我

一直猜　一直想　一直的揣摹
一直到　你变成　甜美的心痛
如果可以　把如果变成结果

下定决心　执着
想让执着为我们突破
我和你　很想说　这时候　出现烟火
让心间充满感动

一字一句一瞬间　走了火
一天一点一转眼　入了魔
忘了我从什么时候
忘了你为什么能够让我
一步一步走火入魔

一字一句一瞬间　走了火
一天一点一转眼　入了魔
如果你有相同感受
感受到有种突然的冲动
放肆一次走火入魔和我

一字一句一瞬间　走了火
一天一点一转眼　入了魔
忘了我从什么时候
忘了你为什么能够让我
一步一步走火入魔

一字一句一瞬间　走了火
一天一点一转眼　入了魔
如果你有相同感受
感受到有种突然的冲动
放肆一次走火入魔和我

如果你有相同感受
感受到有种突然的冲动
放肆一次走火入魔和我

2008-04-17T23:59:00.003+08:00

After so long, finally found the lyrics of the song my blog is playing now: Chou (Butterfly). Muahaha.

Life in NS is VERY good now. I LOVE OETI.

2008-03-30T20:46:00.003+08:00

You are currently listening to: A Song of Storm and Fire.

Kire kagima saibastia

Kiweta i adora i amena i adesta
Idela
Asora i adora i asora i yamasa
Idita dora

Kasa melistora
Imeta li aora
I kasa melindora
Ilyia iya

Kasa melistora
Imeta li aora
I kasa melindora
Ilyia

Kire kagima saibastia
Inaria miamenta
Asora ita saibastia
Imilia iyasii iya

Kiweta ita saibastia
Inaria miamenta
Asora ita saibastia
Imilia iyasii

Kasa melistora
Imeta i aora
Kasa melistora
I kasa melindora

Ilyia...

2008-03-30T20:04:00.002+08:00

BLAZE

果て無き夢求める座標無き世界で．．．

重なる思い心突き刺す鼓動

静かに続くためらいも無い詩

遠く空の彼方から混ざり合った僕らの影

必然と気まぐれの中しるされた記憶

すれ違った時間の渦

朽ち果てても君の声を信じて

果て無き夢求める座標無き未来で

僕が輝失くしてもいつか

君が点してくれた煌めく胸の炎

翼に変わる希望の破片

止まない雨と優しくぬれる月

傷ついてもいい風に揺れ行くぼじょう

暗闇も貫く視線あおくすんだ瞳のおく

絶望も鼓動も越えて刻まれた記し

歪んでく時代のはざま

交わした絆に君を感じた

はかなき道を辿る答え無き世界で

不意に迷い立ち止まってる君よ

胸煌めかす希望の明日へ

はかなき夢求める答え無き世界で

僕の願い届ける輝く胸の炎

果て無き夢求める座標無き未来で

僕が輝失くしてもいつか

君が点してくれた煌めく胸の炎

翼に変わる希望の破片

2008-03-26T22:58:00.003+08:00

What SHAN RUI means?

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

Crap, that's quite on the bull's eye =\

2007-10-31T02:17:00.000+08:00

你何曾像过？

当你用望远镜望向那无边无际的星空时，你会看见什么？

那是如同银河系一样的行星。

千百万颗大大小小，激情的燃烧自己的生命力的星星，

同时集合在一起的巨型天物，我们伸出双手却无奈的碰不得。

那行星所散发的光明，是多么的亮，多么的迷人，

那无法抵挡，让人陶醉的光芒，

穿越了不知多少时空，不知多少光年，

终于映入我们的眼帘。

当我们看见时，你何曾领悟到，

那片迷人的天空，已不属于今日，

而是千百万年前的过去？

那美丽的天景亦可能不存在了，你知道吗?

不禁的，你是否了解到生命的渺小?

你的存在，你所占居的位子，也不如一百万分之一的永恒，

你的存在，是多么的短暂。

那为何要迷失自己？

为了生计忙忙碌碌，为了所谓的美好未来做牛做马？

你自己的梦想又为何物？

丧失了自由，丧失的梦想，

你如同断了翼的片翼天使，

失去了能够飞翔的骄傲。

虽然人在江湖，身不由己，

但是，

请在你省下的生命里，

尽你的能力，再次的，

找回那飞向蓝天的骄傲吧！

LOL wth is Shan Rui typing this when he has GP A Levels 6hrs later?

Bleah I dunno also. Was talking to Junny and had the inspiration. After 1 year of "never touch Chinese", my first work is dedicated to her.

Muahaha.

2007-10-30T01:10:00.000+08:00

叙事詩『LOVELESS』

深淵のなぞ　それは女神の贈り物
われらは求め　飛びたった
彷徨いつづける心の水面に
かすかなさざなみを立てて

約束のない明日であろうと
君の立つ場所に必ず舞い戻ろう

君よ　飛びたつのか？
われらを憎む　世界へと
待ちうけるは　ただ過酷な明日
逆巻く風のみだとしても

惜しみない　祝福とともに
君は女神に愛された
世界を癒す　英雄として

君よ　因果なり
夢も誇りも　すでに失い
女神ひく弓より　すでに矢は放たれて

復讐にとりつかれたるわが魂
苦悩の末にたどりつきたる願望は　わが救済と
君の安らかなる眠り

明日をのぞみて散る魂
誇りも潰え
飛びたとうにも　翼は折れた

約束のない明日であろうと
君の立つ場所に必ず舞い戻ろう

君よ　希え
命はぐくむ　女神の贈り物を
いざ語り継がん
君の犠牲　世界の終わり
人知れず水面をわたる風のごとく
ゆるやかに　確かに

獣たちの戦いが世に終わりをもたらす時
冥き空より、女神が舞い降りる
光と闇の翼を広げ
至福へと導く『贈り物』と共に

いざ語り継がん　君の犠牲　世界の終わり
人知れず水面をわたる風のごとく
ゆるやかに　確かに

約束のない明日であろうと
君の立つ場所に必ず舞い戻ろう

星の希望の雫となりて
地の果て　空のかなた　はるかなる水面
ひそかなる牲となろう

Bwahhh

2007-09-27T20:51:00.000+08:00

Prelim = WOW.

Anyways just knew that chingie got molested by a ********. I promise I won't eat ***** for a week.

And Chirsty and Clary don't give up on ya promos :)

Randomness.

2007-09-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

So long, yea?

Nothing interesting and inspiring lately. Can't think of anything to blog in particular.

Maybe it's just now. I felt so worn out, way worn out.

So tired that I can't think of anything right.

I really don't know what I'm doing lately. I've lost touch with this world and the flow of time. Can't find the motivation to do anything serious. Well A's coming, this is plain shitty.

Where has the real me gone to? I feel so soulless now. Maybe a little is left to sustain the physical life, but I don't know who am I now.

Everyone is moving ahead in time I've seen. I still seem stuck way way back. I don't know for how long. 7 months? or more?

It seems so dreamy for the past year. Way dream like for me to accept it at all.

Something just seemed lost in me or my life. Some thing just some thing. I can't explain it, but I feel it. I don't know if it's just you or there's something else that made me a stranger to myself.

Stuck in this endless void, pathetic me.

Return me the days, my days, that I know who I am.

But it's impossible. You're lost in the eternity of time, my hands can never reach out to you anymore. I wish, how I wish my voice can reach out to you once more.

Maybe we'll meet again, someday somehow. In the far future, in dreams, in another space and dimension, under the name of miracle.

Maybe, maybe, but not for now please. I need the energy to pull through this shitty ordeal by the name of A levels.

For now I shall silently send my prayers to the endless sky and start mugging my notes.

CMPB

2007-07-24T21:39:00.000+08:00

Went to CMPB today.

I've got a PES A.

But wait.

When I see the captain, he says, "Hmm you have a natural gastric problem?"

Shan Rui: "Yes sir, but it's a minor one and it only comes like once in a year or two".

Captain: "I think I have to give you a PES B then, don't worry you'll still go for the combat trainings".

=.=

Spammage of my works.

2007-07-24T00:40:00.000+08:00

LOL.

Back?

2007-07-23T23:52:00.000+08:00

LOL, it has been sometime huh?

A long long month. Haha.

Nothing much to say though, I'm also not sure what to say actually.

I think times has changed. So do people. Hmm don't know why it reminds me of a song from Do As Infinity :p

Well sometimes, times like this allow me to get back on track a little, though Common test results weren't that great :p

I'm pretty lost for words, probably will thank some special people during this period:

1) Of cos my silly boys :p All the times during the holidays, the KBox session blah blah haha.

2) JUN! Haha. Sorry for going missing for so long, and thanks really a lot a lot. I feel that I really owed you much and I haven't done anything for you :s Thanks for always there for me and listening, believing in me. Many thanks and apologies :)

3) Xiao Yun: For those lengthy convos from time to time :p

4) Chingie aka Chiah Hui: Meh finally updated. Thanks for all your concerns and wishes :)

5) Agnes. LOL. For all the songs stole from you XD

6) Christina: You're probably the last person in that "group" that has not changed. Thanks for the honesty and you better start studying for your PROMOS OMG. Haha.

7) And some others I might miss out. :p

Bleah, CMPB tml.

2007-06-29T21:56:00.000+08:00

Bleah. Some latest works.

Kena pawned by common tests totally :(

2007-06-05T03:07:00.000+08:00

Sian, week 2 of holidays start liao. I guess I had to study from now onwards, no more signature making maybe :(

anyways, here's my latest works!

and of course, I bought this hot insignia of mine:

It's uber cool IMO.

Edit: darn, IE can't display .PNG images properly! damn the black BG lah, Firefox is the best man. But the correct one is already embeded on the blog skin so nvm.

2007-06-01T02:28:00.000+08:00

LOL. seems that I still made sigs. Was trying out some tutorials =X

HEHE.

Today Christina played some psychological stuffs with me, the questions kinda sucked but oh well it's still fun =)

Sian today + tml JBtan going the stupid AV(A) camp. Probably a boring Friday then, but LUCKILY saturday we are having a CLASS BBQ! That solves the problem =).

Before me going to sleep, I shall tell you all out there a story:

Once there was this girl, who loved to eat chewing gums.
But she's too lazy to buy herself some.
Till this fateful day, she met this boy,
Who would chong to the nearest candy shop to grab her some.

She quickly fell in love with him, and their story begins.
They were happily living together,
Till a day she had to leave their Eden for her future.

Then the sad story comes.
The boy can't chong to get her the chewing gums anymore,
And he's afraid that she will leave their Eden once for all.

His worries grew, and so does his ego do.
Days has passed, and the the girl met more friends.
There came this boy who is kind,
Trying to help the best he can.
The girl accepted his kindness and they became good friends.

But the chonging boy is jealous,
He believes that he should second to none.
He accuses, he tantrums.
He screams, he yells,
He had submitted himself to his exploded ego and jealousy.

The girl tried her best to explain,
That he shall be her only boy that buys her the chewing gum.
But the boy don't believe, he don't accept.
He shall second to none.
The girl did not give up trying, but the boy just don't believe.
She was on the verge of crying,
That her love of her life just don't accept it.

Time continues to pass,
And the boy can't stand it anymore.
He steals the other boy's contacts without his approval,
And he made the challenge.
But the other boy declines,
As there is no need for the challenge at all.
The other boy shall only be friends, while the chonging boy shall remains as her love.
He just don't understand at all.

Finally, he couldn't take it anymore.
He seeked the power of Satan,
Offering his soul to become the next Lucifer.
He signed the contract of the soul,
and he gained the power to dominate the mind of the girl.

He finally succeed.
The girl told the other boy that this shall be the best of all.
The other boys understands,
The reason of her love for the boy,
And the soul the boy had sacrificed.
The other boy is not angry,
But he is upset.

The other boy is upset that it all leaded to this day, this way.
The other boy is upset that the chonging boy had to sell his soul this way.
And the girl's life is controlled this way.

The other boy is mocking,
How stupid love can be at times.
He goes reflect about himself,
And realized that he shouldn't mock afterall.
As he was once a FOOL too.

Thus he went to the church,
The church where the girl belongs.
Despite the other boy being a free-thinker,
He sincerely prays to her God, Jesus Christ.
He prays for her safety, her future, and her happiness.
Thus, he prays that Jesus shall not bless.

He's not evil, just that he realized what is for the best.
The best is that while the contract of the soul still lasts,
There shall be no happiness.
There will only be sorrow, regrets and guilt for the girl to come.
Her heart would cry the time to come,
And find itself lost in the forest of darkness,
Waiting for the Omgea.

Jesus shall not bless.

Until the day when the boy shall realized from his folly,
And collect his courage to break from the wings of Satan.
Eat his corrupted wings to make himself tame,
The other boy shall not pray to bless.

2007-05-30T20:37:00.001+08:00

Service Learning = Damn tiring =(

Anyways, another sig made. Probably the last sig of this month.

2007-05-29T02:29:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAYS!

Haha. Well, I'm still enjoying instead of studying for Common Tests. Jia Lat.

Sat-Mon was basically slacking. Played pool and I played like shit compared to last month at ECP there sia. Sad lah. Cut my damn bloody think hair also.

And I just realized. Whenever Boss Yang is present, we always end up eating FAST FOOD. LOL!

Monday went to the Food Fest. Chey, nothing to see one =( And HMV so damn lag, the latest Japanese singles all haven't import yet!! Grr.

Spent the rest of my time making SIGNATURES again. Made my 4th and 5th sig, I think there's big improvement from 4th to 5th. Thanks to deviantart.com, all the brilliant brushes helped a lot HAHA. So here's it.

4th - Advent Children:

5th - Koda Kumi

MUAHAHA. Later ask JB help me rate. Better go sleep now. Siao 2:40am le later 6am still have to go down do my morning runs!! =((

2007-05-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

分手后无法和你做朋友，应为曾经深深伤害你。

分手后无法和你做敌人，应为曾经深深爱过你。

在茫茫人海之中，你我是最熟悉的陌生人。

Emo-istic MSN nick from someone, geez.

2007-05-22T22:03:00.000+08:00

So long.

Posting results released tml, hope Ms Lee won't do something silly and don't waste our 4hr doing the interviews. I dunno what the crap the voting among the JC1s are lah, like they know each other real well liddat. And some votes sure kayu one lor, some vote to support friend some votes is cast randomly. Damn it lah, vote is meant to be casted on the capable lah stupid shit. Hiya dunno lah. Crappingly noobish.

Friday SPA. Lost my dear giraffe. But finally got it back! Thank you man Mr Lab Tech =). My poor giraffe finally came back to me, I'll promise I'll bathe you this holidays! =)

Other than that the past days damn TMD lah. First got some good friend of mine like to say sorry one. Make it so understatement. Noob lah you CHEWing gum. =(

But NVM, CHONGster even better lah. 1 week come bug me 1 time. First time bug me make me 1 mark more to A for physics. Ysd come disturb me with his good friend WD, waste my 1hr plus also. Later Econs also nv A then song bo liao. All the faculty test BBBBBBBBBBBBBB. I know B for boy lah but I like A can? Bah. At least for the first time so long I PASSED MY MATHS AND ALMOST SCORED B CAN!! (1 mark more too, so irritating.)

And MR CHONG ah, next time dun so impulsive come CHONG find me can =( Always talk the same thing like so fun liddat. I say till saliva crystalize le lah, you still don't get it and stubborn like BULL. I think your dear friend WD get what I meant already lor. I whip the horse but horse don't want move, then I can sit there shake leg lor!

FISH lah. I can't wait for the god damn holiday to come. =(

2007-05-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

Okayys. Today's Mother's Day!

Celebrated with a lunch @ Rendezvous Hotel's Straits Cafe. Eat Eat Eat till I god damn full lah. I think sure gain weight again. Sian.

And there comes of family again. Cannot blame lah, my dad's side belongs to the traditional cheena people. So much about EQ and social etiquette, I scored a demerit today on the way home. Cos I left the front seat empty (the seat beside the driver's) when I should not. I was told that the front seat should never be left empty, and I should fill it up instead of taking the back seat cos I'll make the driver like my driver liddat.

I think most of us don't know this bah haha. Guess there's more social etiquette to learn. I wonder why schools didn't teach us? Darn I can't join the Shatec Social Etiquette course during Sec 3 just because I'm in the Uniform Groups and we had to help out in the Sec 3 camp and we are not allowed to go!!

Anyways. Better be back studying. Next week is ownage. 2 Faculty test and Chem SPA. Tsktsk.

2007-05-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

TPJC School Song (Remix) MTV out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=73hdaCz-4O0

OMG lah.

2007-05-01T21:05:00.000+08:00

Singapore is really small man.

Today went out with the boys. Lunch time met Christina and Hen and some other Ex-CCH people =X

Then KBox-ed the whole afternoon. WTH all those hardcore songs sign till can peng sia. I think I won't go KBox sing for at least a month.

And I better start studying for faculty test and mid-year =X. Ha.

2007-04-25T20:56:00.000+08:00

MISCELLANEOUS OFFENCES (PUBLIC ORDER AND NUISANCE) ACT

(CHAPTER 184)

Intentional harassment, alarm or distress

13A. —(1) Any person who in a public place or in a private place, with intent to cause harassment, alarm or distress to another person —

(a) uses threatening, abusive or insulting words or behaviour; or

(b) displays any writing, sign or other visible representation which is threatening, abusive or insulting,

thereby causing that person or any other person harassment, alarm or distress, shall be guilty of an offence and shall be liable on conviction to a fine not exceeding $5,000.

Harassment, alarm or distress

13B. —(1) Any person who in a public place or in a private place —

(a) uses threatening, abusive or insulting words or behaviour; or

(b) displays any writing, sign or other visible representation which is threatening, abusive or insulting,

within the hearing or sight of any person likely to be caused harassment, alarm or distress thereby shall be guilty of an offence and shall be liable on conviction to a fine not exceeding $2,000.

As of 15th April 2007 from

Attorney-General's Chambers and the Managing for Excellence Office, MOF.

Random post for some random person(s).

2007-04-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

Message to 2 person:

No.1 - to the idiot who used 3 alias and even tried to imposter my friend, magicalmysitca, don't be stupid. CBox has IP tracking, even you were from a dynamic proxy IT IS STILL OBVIOUS. I know who are you dude. I guess you are really that educational failure as far as being politically correct.

No.2 - Meepok. The person who used the F word is not me, it's the idiot mentioned above. As for your concern, you and her has been together like 1 plus years? You don't even have a little faith in it? Are you that losing insecure huh? Who I mix around with is my own choice, don't fall into your own trap of prejudiced belief. I think you have been like this since awhile ago don't you, as told by her. Just have that crucial self-confidence and you would be a happier guy and you and her would be happier too. May your God bless you.

2007-04-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

Noob lah!

What noobish days these are.

Saturday got the Lib outing organized by the JC1s. Pretty unsatisfactory I'd say.

Sunday I threw away 50Kg of noob rubbish from my room OMG. So many. And I received 2 SMS from a bo liao person =(

Today. Better don't comment.

BUT!!

The next Ex-Co formation is drawing near. And I'm in a serious headache about it. I don't want CMI people to be in the next Ex-Co lah OMG.

And someone finally realized that he/she is the one of the ones being classified as CMI. Why?

Ex-Co people are busy people by nature, if you are so damn busy all the time, then I don't need you then.

So difficult to mobilize you. So difficult to get you out at times. So difficult to get you do things and reply. Sorry, Ex-COs are people who are going to commit. They have to spend a significant amount of their private time to run errands and shop for stuffs and go around contact people.

Ex-COs have much more to do than that, that's why I need people who are willing to commit, have the time and steady people to manage the Society.

Not those who are only committed to do stuffs only when I get real serious. Worse still, when I try to talk serious you think I want to pick a fight. Like this, think you better stay away from serious stuffs.

If you had a problem/prejudice with me or something related that happened in the past or some crap, and you want to give me that attitude crap, so be it.

For God's sake, I'm tired of it. I'm even tired of supporting you as a potential. It's tiring. It's sad.

It's serious. It's not easy being an Ex-CO managing a group of people that is difficult to manage by nature somehow. You think I managed it by pulling relations, you think I slack and never do stuffs.

I may do it not perfectly, but open your damn eyes please. I've covered up more shit than all the meals you've eaten for the past year. And I'm serious.

You think I'm rude by saying this to you? Nah it's polite enough. I've not made a hoohah about it, and that will be what you call rude okays.

True enough. You only do things you like. You only choose to hear what you like. Ex-CO is not a place for you. Neither do this world and the working environment. Stop living in your god damn cosy world.

I've quited vulgarities on my blog for so long le. Thanks man. You made me feel so holy shit ZOMFGWTFBBQPWNED now.

I don't want to use it on my blog, but just,

Fuck it man. It really sucks.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBBBBBBBBB LAH OMG.

Edit: Stop complaining about me being biased. Stop complaining about not having the opportunities. Yea, stop complaining for those who complained. The opportunities are always there. Grab it and show me what you can do and not complaining and grumbling at my back.

And you all talk about biased? Like? Cos I'm closer to X and Y? OMG LAH you. Grow up can, cannot be good friends with juniors izzit? Then I come be your good friend and people say the same things behind my back? If you think that I never talk to you, why don't you talk to me instead. Since when the law says that I must always be the first to talk to you people lah. I'm not Saint okays. Even PM LEE also needs people to feedback and talk to him first also rite. You think I superman ah.

If you think close to me = guaranteed Ex-CO, come try on me loh. See what happens then. Don't be that dumb please. I speak all good points and demerits about all of you when we talk about you. Not like as if I praise X and Y like Gods liddat can. And what gains do I get. As if they pay me SGD$1,000,000 liddat lah. Lame lah you people.

So please stop it.

2007-04-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

Noob lah! ~!@#$%^&*

Met some stupid uncle AGAIN. TODAY.

Want to cross then cross lah, yell at me for what. Lame.

Another time is some uncle knock into me still dare to scold me. Never die before sia.

Such asshole people the psychologist has 3 explanation for their ass-ness:

1) They are mentally ill.

2) They was once gangsters when they were young, they still believe that they are that teen gangster half a decade ago.

3) They think they old le = big shot.

I can sympathize it if it's 1) lah, but 2) = go look at urself in the mirror now lah, even you go fight the noobest beng you also go ICU lor. Better shut your mouth and mind your own business before some beng outside crush your bones lor. Tsk. 3) even worse. Old = Big shot? Wait till I shoot at your ass then you know what's big shot hor. Grr.

****ing uncles! and some siao keng aunties.

Anyways my throat is so sucky now. I think is the stupid lollipop we make yesterday lah. OMG. Tml still need go ECP. =( Sad lah.

2007-04-18T20:01:00.000+08:00

What a hiong Heron Captain we have! OMG. =X

Today she came to library. Coup all the newspaper there and it totals up to have 260kg of newspaper in a day. OVERKILL.

Not bad not bad. I got help seh. Heron GOGO man!

LOLs. Dunno who vandalized it. "Studies" become "Die"

2007-04-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

Boring?

Busy, no time?

Don't have time for all these stuff already?

Blah blah blah?

You just don't freaking understand do you? A word as simple as CARE.

Yea. A simple word, as simple as CARE.

In which you don't need to do anything difficult and special AT ALL. When you care, your actions shows it. It's a natural. Not because you did it on purpose to show you care.

Please don't lie to me.

And the other LIARs.

2007-04-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

PW = B = Sad.

I thought I could have gotten A with the good marker's comment. Maybe I'm a few marks away from that A grade or there have been a downward moderation?

29As for TPJC. Congrats to my bugger friend He Fan on achieving his A =)

Sigh.

And there's this group of clowns, trying to be funny in Library, I gave them warnings and don't listen right? Kena caught then the next day yelling vulgarities around when seeing me huh?

A nice way of insult. Not to me, but yourself =D

It really shows how much your dear parents had taught you or they had taught you but you are just a retard who don't learn.

Such people are commonly classified as EDUCATIONAL FAILURE. With no sense of courtesy and manners and only reflects badly on themselves and even disgracing their family. I feel so ashamed of you people. Wasting public money subsidizing your education when you have learnt nothing but shit!

I'm being stupefied. Serious. Despite that I should have known that such brainless, monkey-like actions and resource wasting people had long existed are are here to stay.

I guess I shall not comment anymore and let any possibility of myself degrading to that worm-like level like them =X

And to those who think that I'll be your angel who will grant your silly wishes, I'll guarantee that I'll be the devil who will crush your dreams to the ground. Serious. I don't need such people as friends.

2007-04-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

=((

Broken thumb. Or should called it sprained thumb.

How to do my GP and thursday's econs test sia.

=((

2007-04-08T21:30:00.000+08:00

Went to Ministry of Food to eat lunch with Amelia and Xuan Ning.

Haha Xuan Ning say Ministry of EDUCATION =.=. Reminds me of Boss Yang's friend pronounce Billy Bombers as Bali Bombers! XD

The food was not bad, but damn faggot lah! I think they put soy sauce in that damn cup. Make me think it's MISO SOUP CAN!!

Then I still go and drink. At first like not bad, but then later think damn freaking salty. Then ask Amelia and Xuan Ning drink to confirm.

What the hell. Then all say it is the soy sauce for the Tempuri =( For what sake they use such a big cup to serve the sauce? The table has the soy sauce le lor!!!

=(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

SIAN
SIAN
SIAN

Next week still got 2 test and still gotta do Normal Distribution Assignment. Heng I finished Econs le. =]

Another boring day ahead..

2007-04-07T23:10:00.001+08:00

SONGFEST 07 ROCKS MAN

And Asri PAWNS ALL!

Of cos not to forget the 05 Songfest winner, Stella Story, Rusty and Blossom!

MUAHAHHAHAHA

2007-04-01T11:23:00.000+08:00

Hehe. My latest signatures. Wahahaha.

2007-03-30T20:50:00.000+08:00

Orientation.

Stupid sia. Make me do banana dance + gay dance. =X =p =(

Haha. Anyways Junnie, I'm really okay =) Don't worry too much for me =)

Library Month is launching. OMG. Hahahahaah!

2007-03-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

Stupid jigsaw puzzles and curfew boy! =( but thumbs up to pizzas =D

And some stupid ppl who think she's the big shot want to mess around with stuffs. She'd better not man.

Talked to Amelia today. Haha. Dunno why talked about that to reminded me of something sweet but painful.

23rd Jan - 23rd Feb. Thanks to those people who were with me in this period. A period of events that probably shook my life like an earthquake. I'm still confused if the change was good or bad.

That unexplainable feeling, almost like the day of October 3 years ago, at that nostalgic hill. I missed it and the days before it. I really missed it badly. So badly that sometimes it makes me want to die.

If and only if..

But I guess I'm climbing back, and kena tied up by heavy crap workload that was supposed to bring me back to reality, but instead made me almost forgot the feeling of reality.

Sometime, I really want a break and wonder what I'm doing now. Why I worked so hard for things. Is it because I wanted it to be or?

What is real and what not. I guess I won't have the chance to think and realize it for a period of time till some time later.

This moment, this chilly windy night. 11:36pm as I typed the time in this sentence, I dunno what to write any more. I can't even describe this feeling now. It's like as if time has stopped, and your mind just want to space out and wonder everywhere, probably to the histories of the past or even the eternity of the future, even you were to plunge into such thoughts like into a black hole and never the chance to emerge from the event horizon again. I'd willingly plunge into it. I guess I haven't forgot the gravity of reality after all, grounding me back to this world that I possibly don't wanna be for the time being.

*shrugs*

Havta make my uniform later. Don't really like moving from this computer chair of mine. It means moving back to reality. Back to the bed. Back to sleep, and follow and other day of standard JC student routine.

That green uniform that I've worn for 1 year exact now. So much memories in it. And what's the meaning of that uniform?

I guess. I'm getting random.

What the heck I'm doing now, typing such an emo and random post at this hour.

2007-03-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

I'm Shan Rui.

Not Gary Cao Ge the Superman =.=

Things to be done by Tuesday:
- Chemistry Class Test: Chemical Equilibria
- Physics SPA Skill A: Arrows
- Economics: Essay
- General Paper: US vs Iraq
- Mathematics: Normal Distribution Tutorial

PLUS. Library 1 month of events on upcoming April.

Sian
sIan
siAn
siaN

=(

2007-03-24T23:42:00.000+08:00

HAHA. My new blog skin. Re-designed by me!

Today is a good day. Waiting for Mr.Lie to send me the pics. Muahaha dustbin boy XD

2007-03-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

Sia lah!

Today on my way home. The block near my block (JB's block) got crime scene. Blood stains all over the floor OMG. I wonder why the police never seal the scene sia.

Then I stand there see see. See the police place those A,B,C,D cards and photographers take pictures. Haha so busybody sia. Still go ask those uncles and aunties what happened. Like ah pek liddat LOL. They say got somebody fight there.

Hmm. I guess must be those hooligans that always hang out there bah. Haha sounds dangerous. Fight in the day summore =.=

2007-03-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

Oh Ya forgot. CRAP LOAD OF PPL AT BUGIS!!

2007-03-16T21:54:00.000+08:00

Error code: 80048820.

Cannot sign in to MSN Live Messenger from 3pm-9pm wth.

Ponit: StarHub SUCKS.

OMG. still havent do HW. tml must pia liao =(

2007-03-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

FINALLY received the parcel. Thanks to my DUMB sister who kept the collection card for so long and never gave it to me till TODAY OMG.

Hehe nice little turtle! The legs and tail can move summore haha. Cute seh =)

But the string a little short XD Hehe you are really good at making stuffs man!

Sian tml still got CCA. And some BUGGER made be FREAKING angry and upset T_T

And my mum too. Freaking ****ed up today. Dunno what's freaking wrong with her ARRGGH.

But heng got this little turtle and the Yang gang gimme the happiness of today. Thanks guys and Jun~!.

2007-03-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

Today is so god damn funny!

Morn went back to CCH to play street soccer. Told everyone to wear the CCH PE attire cos later the Security Guard ask. JY dunno hear what, wore TPJC green shirt and the blue CCH shorts. OMG damn freaking toot can he look?! JB luff like siao when he got down the bus haha!

Damn Boss Yang say 10am still dare to go Kallang EAT MAC. Bugger.

Just realized that Street Soccer worse than play soccer @ basketball court. Totally ZEROED lol.

Then later bathe at Gym toilet. JB so funny, washed hair 3 times cos he used the body shampoo to wash his hair =.= BEST still JY. You know those type of long pants the bottom part can detached? SONG BO he brought the DETACHED part instead of the can wear part =.=!!! That dumb boy made us luff till drop. In the end he walked here and there with the CCH shorts showing off his sexy legs wahahaha!

Went Katong the Gaming Giant (Ex-Rising Star) played a few games while waiting for Boss Yang to dismiss his Scouts. New company, new guy. Good service, good mannered =) So much better than the EX-CONVICT can?!

Played Pool afterwards. Much better than last time le hehe. Anthony was winning Eugine and JB by 4 balls, after I took over I finished him off lol! The best part is the table god damn lousy lar. Ball can STUCK INSIDE till need 5 of us to lift the table to make the ball come out?! Wasted 20min looking for the ball lar, that lady should have told us earlier to lift the table lor. Made us look for it high and low. But I also power sia, can shoot in till stuck.

Sian tml dunno want to go the IT Fair anot. Maths Faculty test still havent study yet.. =(

2007-03-09T22:52:00.000+08:00

Hehe. Bdae over so long le than post haha!

Actually want wait Jun's present deliver here de.. But the parcel still haven't come. Haha. Next time then take pic bah~

Stupid Xuan Ning I'll remember you okay!! That newspaper bag joke. Humph. How can you do this. =( Anyways thanks for all the presents!

And I'm pretty surprised that Kristin was the first one to wish me Happy Bdae in the midnight! Lols. Maybe because my bdae same as that Wan Leng? Haha!

Library. CCA Drive today. Shrugs haha! Next year the arrangement better change okay Ms Heleen Choo! Arrgh. And that Raine Lorrie. MIA again. BEST. Best in Spore and JB some say batam.

And holy moly today almost late. Extra charge pain seh. Make the cost $10. I not rich lar! Haha.

Pontang on Thursday, sleep till late morning. So SONG lor haha. Then went shopping for Library stuffs then want go school study one. Then realized NEVER bring notes then have to run home take. Waste 1.5hrs traveling here and there lar.. Sobs.

This year really Chong Tai Sui seh.

Waiting waiting for the parcel to come now. =)

2007-03-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

A for Chinese =)

Econs faculty test today.. Kelong kelong! Essay Qn cher told us do before! Lols.

Went KBox celebrate Boss Yang's 18th Bdae after the dumb saturday test. Celebrated mine too though 2 days early LOL. Sang like mad. The Bdae package not bad, quite reasonable price. But the cake like kuku =.=

And the present like KUKU also. From JB as expected:

Plus his $200 Angpao -_-''

Lols kuku nathan. Han Rui also kuku give that thing. Better don't post here. R21 content.

Anyways looking forward to other presents. Especially from Jun HAHA!

2007-02-25T18:53:00.000+08:00

1 week of CNY so many things happened.

Alice was an evil angel after all =[ BANISHED!!

Nvm. New year angbao only keep 25%, the rest mom coup. Sian. Good good lar dun want to listen to me, tell her don't assume how much people give le.. Don't believe me.. Then make huge loss le lor then need to coup my angbao cover cost. Arrggh.

Also lar my Ah Gong, so many wives. So scary lar. New year no a few thousand bucks for angpaos also cannot. So troublesome my family there, first day 20 plus people le lor. Need give so many angpaos and the money need calculate carefully. Or else next time like my mom LOL. Give till chiew nua!

Friday was the worse day of CNY and this year. Dun want mention liao.

Saturday was STEAMBOAT. Hahas. Eat eat eat! Those people gamble gamble gamble. Damn Dora from 40cents make 15 dollars plus. This year really her year lah HAHA! So evil me say that. Heng only Kok Swee and Victor heard it LOL LOL. But too much food cannot eat finish.. And scallop KS-ing like so fun sia.. Hehe.

But before that went soccer again. Tiring lah! 2v2 full court. Run like a dog sia.. So tiring. Boss Yang went the Temple of God of Fortune. Says need change wallet for $$$ luck, Yellow is the colour. For love luck wear a ring that it's colour will not fade easily on your second finger. Hahas!

Later shopping with JB and JY for Boss Yang's present. So headache over it, shop for 1 and a half hour then decided.. Need buy some cool stuff for that Diao Uncle.. Haha.. Wanted to buy that damn cool $$$ lighter but $92. Haha the price really diao sia.. No $$$ lol, only brought $60 for his present. In the end I came out with a good good idea which we all so happily agreed on haha.

Dun worry lar Boss Yang, it's still something good and you'll like it. Serious. We not so evil buy those things you buy for JB =)

Countdown, 6 days to Celebrations, 8 days to my actual birthday. Stupid Boss Yang 2 days earlier. But damn heng we not born in the middle of the 2 days difference, or else same day as Dalip. Then really tok gong liao.

2007-02-17T20:15:00.000+08:00

It's CNY EVE!!

But dun seem so happening lols. Morn played soccer for 1.5hrs. FULL COURT lol. So tiring, but we break the limit of 1hrs haha! Usually play less than an hour go eat desert liao. Hehe.

JY and Boss Yang ate pataya. Sian I ate nothing. Nothing to eat at hawker. =(

Went home to download some stuffs. Then chat with Alice Angel. Haha asked me out in the evening. Blur Alice missed her way to my house.. Ran half the Circuit Road to find her near the Church =.= HAHAS!

Then chatted alot of crap, took a pic. Then that good good mum of mine always dee siao me at wrong time. Ask me go back dinner immediately. SIAN lah.

Whateva~ haiz..

Tml still need to go sengkang get angpao.. Sian lor.. those auntie uncle again. Why me so suey one ah.. the only one whose age is IN THE MIDDLE. Those older ones 20+, 30+ or uncles and grandpas. Those younger ones primary sch or babies. So sad lar.. Sit there like so sian..

Dun wan think liao.

Anyways HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

2007-02-16T17:30:00.000+08:00

Morning SUCKS. Wake up late and wasted $12 on cab. Pain sia.

CNY celebration @ school today. Entertaining show by the Chinese Drama and the singers (",)

Later went to TM for lunch and watched the Protege. Pretty good show by Andy Lau! About drugs, I think it should be part of the anti-drug campaign =p

Now rotting at home. Waiting for JB's good news. WTH sia, CNY if he helped his dad's business 1 hr $50. =.= FIFTY PER HOUR OKAY WHAT THE HELL. Haha maybe I should go help out when I'm free. LOLS!

2007-02-14T15:48:00.000+08:00

GP was fun today lol. We were to form 3 political parties, decide our campaign speech and after the campaigning we had the "elections". And my team won! LOL

Presenting the party: People's Party (PP)

Consists of me, Santono, Kok Swee and Ka Lok =]

Lalalalala

2007-02-13T19:03:00.000+08:00

So long never post.

Not much things happened though. Except that OBS that gave me some inspiration to post.

OBS for? Ong Bee Suan? O-Ba-San LAH! Crazy teacher. Well Monday we had Learning Journey. Bus leaving at 12.30 so Mr Ho says can leave after GP and he has told the chers. WELL, we don't know that we can't skip Maths lecture for it. Even it's Mr Ho's fault to say we can skip, but afterall he's a new teacher RITE? Do you need to degrade yourself to some insane woman, and scream like mad with all your curses in the LT? Why humiliate us? And did the rest of the students do you wrong to accept your nonsense?

No right? As an old teacher and your seniority you do such ridiculous things? OMG. And you demand our parents to write a letter to apologise for us skipping lessons? Are you sleeping?

Hell NO! Unless you give every student in the LT that time a public apology, I'll not apologise to you. Afterall we're not informed of that rule, I don't even feel the need to apologise to you, especially after what you've done? I've totally lost my respect for you. Sucks.

And nono for the parent's letter. That's LAME. And sorry to Mr Ho for causing you this trouble.

I still remember what my Primary School's Chinese teacher told me. Most women after 40 still not married probably do suffer from mental disorder. He's correct though. I dunno why so unlucky, from Primary till JC everytime have such teachers. I really make me wonder if I should be a Chinese teacher like Mr Oh said not. Oh how I FEAR to have them at my workplace.

Whateva~

Today my class says play Angel and Mortal. Haha, drew this guy as my mortal. I think it's gonna be fun MUAHAHAHAHA! Wonder who's my angel.

Speaking of angels. Naughty angel says I must make a post about her. Okay lor. Entertaining, funny, cute, lovable, well mannered, good girl. Model student. Say till very nice le rite? =]

Waiting~ Waiting for weekend, and my angbaos.. And probably a steamboat and my upcoming birthday! (I think it's gonna be KBOX again haha. Celebrating Boss Yang's bdae too.)

Saw Ms.Lee's OLMs. So depressing to see all those. Guess it's time to do some work.. Haiz..

IDIOTS

2007-02-03T22:12:00.000+08:00

So long never blog le. Nothing much to write. But well, someone inspired me to blog today.

Thumbs up to you, Mr.Ex-Convict.

Went Rising Star @ Katong today. I thought it should be pretty full by the time we went in cos Boss Yang was late. But it looks so empty. I though why. Well, the answer was the person tending the place.

Ask how many persons play what need so diao meh? I kill your mum izzit? LOL. Ask for IC. Place it on the counter le still need to deliver it to your hands? Or you can't ask properly with some manners?

Well. Can't blame you. Either 1) Your parents never teach you manners. 2) You'd be some Ex-Convict. Well the answer is both. Some guy who thinks he's damn cool to be an ah beng and never even attend Nursery.

Whateva~ Left that damned place. Good luck to Rising Star @ Katong. Thanks for taking part in The Yellow Ribbon Project =)

Well, idiots as such are always around. There's this Sec Sch guy who I meet almost every time on the way to school on the MRT. Listen to some stupid metal music at full blast, such that the whole cabin and the adjacent cabins can hear that. Listen till his face looks so idiotic. Humph. And other stupid people who can't afford to buy an ear piece or headphone and blast their mp3s as if the cabin is their home or thinking that they had a great taste for music (when it really sucked) and wanted to share with us. Worse of all, I met an airhead that blast POLYPHONIC RINGTONES @ the MRT.

And other idiots who love to study @ the noisy MacDonald's. What the heck are you thinking? Study at home or at Library lar! Seats are for people to eat their meals okay?! Or you are trying to show the world how smart you are? That's so stupid. No wonder Sin²x + Cos²x = 1 also can get it wrong :(

Singapore shouldn't waste $$$ on such idiots. Dear PAP, you'd better start saving your $$$ to give scholarships and help those people who had the real potential to become elites that will do good to the society. Stop wasting millions of the tax payer's money on those idiots and become toilet cleaners in their later life. No need to spend 500k per person throughout their life to train them to be a toilet cleaner, give me 10k per person and I'll be able to train them to clean your toilets till as good as new in a month.

*shrugs*

2007-01-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

你就是我的天使
保护著我的天使
从此我再没有忧伤
你就是我的天使
给我快乐的天使
甚至我学会了飞翔
飞过人间的无常
才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎黱样
只要有你就会是天堂
像孩子依赖著肩膀
像眼泪依赖著脸庞
你就像天使一样
给我依赖给我力量
像诗人依赖著月亮
像海豚依赖海洋
你是天使你是天使
你是我最初和最后的天堂

2007-01-25T19:48:00.000+08:00

2 days ago was Library Society's orientation. Haha damn fun seh! My game totally killed all of them lah haha!

Highlight of the game:

Terrence's Hobby: Curfew =.=

And this idiot called the whacker's name in the whacko TWICE.

And Jibrail's Grand Forfeit was soo funny.. his act cute pose was.. OMG. Hahahahaha.

Today kelgirl got make curry icecream with chili chips. :(

Sadly waiting for friday to pass.. and go shopping on saturday!!

New Siggy!

2007-01-14T19:26:00.000+08:00

Well, feeling a little bored at home, so made a new signature (the one showing on my blog now). Haha!

Yesterday went for Service Learning. A little disappointed for the turn out rate, but well, at least we learn something there. After that was rotting at Parkway Parade, walking here and there aimlessly.. Arrghh.. I hate to go Parkway. Reminds me of that damed Nokia.

Went home feeling shagged, make a lousy signature of Dillon's pic. Lol.

And thanks to the Library people, I have to play with photoshop again to make the Haruhi signature to kill time, while waiting for the long due works to be submitted to me. Arrggghhh.

Well things had to change. So I dug out the ancient relic of the Library Society and spent 1.5hrs typing out the Job Specifications and the Ground Rules of the society. Haiz I really hate to do such things like bossing people around and talking like a jerk, but well, I had to be the baddie.

A few more hours to school.. Feeling sianed again.. Haha the usual cycle.. Dunno why I'm so boring lol XD

Bah, I'm feeling so messy now. Dun want write anymore liao ler. Somebody keep bugging be to update haha..

~!@#$%^&*()_+{}|":?>
2007-01-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

Holy Shit!
----------------

58.5KG-67.0KG in one year?! WTH!

JC is really TOO slacking. Sec sch time eat like a mofo also never gained weight lor.. SIANED. My senior say it's okay one, come JC confirm go fat :(

Wadeva lar. Need to cut down the fats. 30% reduction in food intake from now on. Aim for 100 sit ups per day to burn some tyre!!

And gosh, library people is getting from bad to worse. Sounds like there's only me plus 2-3 other people running it most of the time.

Kkie, go do sit ups liao.

Damn Pissed.

2007-01-11T22:35:00.000+08:00

Sian ^ ^∞

Sian ^ ^∞ !!!

Nokia is screwed. Buy 9mths, spoil 4 times. Most BBQ part is 1 day after getting back the phone from the service center, spoil agian. OWNAGE!!

So today have to go down to Parkway AGAIN. For god's sake, that's freaking waste of time. And it's raining summore -_-

Asked the person-in-charge to come out. Whatever la. That person-in-charge promised me to send the phone to the higher engineers himself and he'll test the phone personally before returning me. You'd better make sure it's done PROPERLY and extend my warranty period, or you'll see CASE/IES people coming down. Arrggh.

Okay now, TPJC rocks to the maximum with the new Principal. Sure Mrs.Principal I'm glad that you are dynamic and sounds fun, but I think you are a little screwed up. Catch this catch that, honestly speaking my Sec sch which is supposed to be a Sch with good public reputations also not this "crazy" lor.

So what's next, regulation socks? Regulation hairstyle and bags, or regulation hair accessories for girls?

But that's still not the best. The parents rocks 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000
times even more! Actually Library Society wanted to do some movie screening, on Death Note. But not allowed, and guess what, I'm told that HARRY POTTER is NOT allowed. Why?!

Your answer is, parents will say, "Why are you showing my child all this, witchcraft and black magic?!". OMG dear parent, stop being so innocent, don't tell me you are that angelfish and think that your child is so pure or your child will become wizards or possessed by Satan! Or are you just being hypocritical?! Forget it.

And come on, I know you parents are rich, can buy cars, but no need everyday come sch show off right?! Drizzling also need to send you child to school by private transport. Sunny morning also public transport. zZz. The college's flagraising time has been pushed forward by 10 mins to 0740hrs, and I'm leaving my house the SAME time as the old flagraising time. And the ridiculous thing is, I'm always late.

And the teachers just merely said, "come out earlier, if still cannot make it, even earlier". God Bless You, I'll invite you to come down my home and live for one week, and feel it for yourself. I'm already waking at 5am plus, and you want it earlier everyday?! Try living my area where you have to wait 15min for a bus, and that bus is stopping at every bus stop for 1-2min thanks to the many idiots who tried to squeeze in when the law of physics and common sense told them it's ridiculous to do that. Try cramping with TKGS, TKSS, CHIJ Girls, Machperson Sec, Cedar Girls, CCHS, MJ and TPJC. 8 main schools are taking this bus service!

And I still have to take MRT to Tampines and transfer to another bus instead. Whereby there's another hoard of idiots who tried to squeeze and make the bus halt for 1-2min every stop. Together with the caring parents, we the poor students taking public transport are getting a hoo har 15min jam in the bus OUTSIDE the gates. I really don't know what to say. For God's sake, Chirst's sake or Buddha's sake?!

Come on parents, for ENVIRONMENT sake, tell your child to take the pubilc transport. Stop emitting all the carbon dioxides and polluting the environment. El Nino + Global Warming is already creating havoc all round the world now, look at it. It's new year and it's raining. M'sia had never experienced such floods before. Just be considerate for out dearest Mother Earth for once!!

Edit: Luckily there's someone in TPJC now that make me feel so much better, and makes me think that coming to school might not be such a bad thing.

I think I'll need to go for CWO soon :(

2006-12-31T23:42:00.000+08:00

Last few moments of 2006
---------------------------------

LOL. I think what I'm gonna say is like so cliche. Reflections? Sure, short and sweet. I just f***ed this year up, probably. Next year is gonna be a busy year, have to pia ALL of J1 work. I really wonder why I got promoted. Must be damn freaking lucky. Really. I just realized Science is just not for me, and some other probably realized that too. I think I gotta say goodbye to all those nonsense slacking and sleeping in class. Really gotta be serious. I'm actually panicking lol.

Resolution? #1. Get a new bloody damn phone. FFS, I just repaired my phone a month ago. NOW the EXACT PROBLEM rose again. NOKIA really SUCKS! #2. Better get my arse up and buck up. Seriously. Now I wished that someone will supervise me and slap me awake everyday.

Other than that, not too much things to ask for, excepting hoping my friends that kena retain also better buck up, finish the Suzumiya Haruhi collection, and some EYE CANDY next year! OMG. And hopefully better canteen food.

A few hours back, had some celebration with the usual gang, except Boss Yang wasn't present, and some "Special Guest" was there also. Haha none other than Mr.Lye. Cracked many jokes there, well probably 99% are dirty jokes about Fannanie and his funny adventures throughout this year..

How fast this year really pass. It's so sad to let this year go, or am I afraid to accept another new year? What's going to happen next? It's so worrying that I don't want to think about. Now is 23:56, less than 4 mins.. Haha, I'm feeling so weird now.. Cannot explain.

Well.. I guess that's it. See ya 2006.

2006-12-29T20:15:00.000+08:00

It's near the end of 2006
------------------------------

Yea, end is coming. HW? 2 articles done + compre ONLY. BBQPWN.

Actually today wanted to study, well in the end, went to Kinokuniya and HMV for shopping XD!

Finally bought the OMGBBQ Suzumiya Haruhi's Official Fanbook! Nice graphics :) And Haruhi looks so cute on the cover! Also bought the 4th Novel "The Disappearance of Suzumiya Haruhi". Dunno when can finish it man.. Haha..

Yesterday watched Death Note 2 @ Bishan J8. WAH KAO. So DISAPPOINTED. :( It's so WTF lah, L did not win loh. And the movie made L win Light. Totally sian diao!! Those L fans must be so song lah! Sian. Also made a haircut @ Jean Yip hairdressing.. Heng not that stupid HK stylist cut sia, last time my friend kena him cut the whole class luff for a week lol.. HK style. =X

Did some window shopping (getting ready for new year, stupid mum keep bugging me to start shopping, as if New Year no Big Sales like that sia..). Stupid Converse, the shoe design like so sama sama one.. POA's nicer lah, but so easily spoil :( Dunno lah still got long time to come.

Sunday going steamboat! OMG 9mths never go liao. Hope this time those guys don't get cholesterol poisoning and start dancing in the middle of the road!

2006-12-28T02:04:00.000+08:00

Holiday Life
-----------------

Sian. Sian. Sian.

Rain. Rain. Rain.

KNS lah.. Also dunno do what.. Haha.. Go Library do duty for another extra week, then one day after duty went to TM Mac. Fannanie aka Mr.Mac saw 2 of our juniors. I think they recognize us bah, keep "walking around" our table. Stuipd Kelly and dunno who, want eat a meal also cannot make us feel so awkward. Haha.

Other than that, rotting at home.. Want to out also cannot. And HW/Studies still havent start arh.. Arrgghh.. Next year must pia like siao liao. All those JC1 work to catch up.

Well, the only entertaining show of this holiday was probably "The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya" aka "Suzumiya no Yuutsu". 14 episode. Super cute and funny! All those High School nonsense, reminds me of Azumanga Daioh, LOL!

Haruhi FTW! So I made a signature for the Haruhi series and used it on my bloggie. Also made signature of Light Yagami of Death Note.

And 12hrs later, going Bishan J8 to watch DN2! OMGBBQ! Go and DAI, L, Yagami FTW!

Better start chionging hw/topical test on 29th. TOO LATE liao!! FFS! I really hate myself. So lazy.

2006-12-13T22:33:00.000+08:00

Hmm. I don't know Makiyo was a singer lol. Her song, Sign of Wish.

2006-11-27T01:15:00.000+08:00

Special Dedication to...
----------------------------------

Today got to know this song, Because You Live by Jesse McCartney. Song is nice, so do the lyrics.

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back
Like a wake-up call

I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know, what I didn't know

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's all right, I survived, I'm alive again
Cause of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use
If you're killing time

I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live, I live

Because you live, there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me
Always

[Chorus]
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
When nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live, I live, I live

Yea, nice isn't it? Dedicated to all my friends that is always with me,

AND!

as the lyrics says, "I'm so glad I found an angel",

So it's gonna be specially dedicated to Jun, my "Angel". Thanks for being there always, really happy to get to know a friend like you! Friends 4ea~!!

2006-11-19T03:26:00.000+08:00

Chalet
----------

Came back from Class Chalet (13rd-15th). Quite fun!

Day 1: Met at Cheers and checked in. A little disappointed though, the chalet like East Coast Park's, bedroom damn small *sob*. Played mahjong till BBQ. Heng Kok Swee got come or else no BBQ. Then Cher came and talked a lot of crap lol. At night the crazy people played Indial Poker + Ice.. OMG hell noisy sia! Later watched some Korean Ghost movie.

Oh ya, clean forgotten that dumb NICHOLAS TOH! Dunno where the hell he bring us.. Walked so freaking far to some ulu 24hrs Shop n Save lol. Heng still got bus come back or else he'll get killed on the spot lol.

Day 2: Eat Mac, then go back sleep. Some went beach. Afternoon went cycling and ate Pizza. BBQ again lol. Second day super slack, I think many of them buey tong liao. All super sleepy.

Day 3: Ate Hawker and go home! OMG. How come everything looks so sian. But still quite enjoyable lah. Listen those anuties and uncles gossip and go crazy about food can make you laugh like there's no tomorrow!

Library
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ZOMGWTFBBQPWN! Stocktake! Wth SO LITTLE PEOPLE CAME. Me and He Fan worked like a COW only clear half shelf on Day 1. At this rate I think it's gonna take 3-4weeks man... NOOO!!!

Random Stuffs
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TMD. GST rising to 7%!!!!

During the Chalet got to know some nice songs. Downloaded it! And watched JackyWu's show on Saturday. GAY man that family, hide the daughter like so hardcore. And those hotdogs on the hair.. OMG.. EXCELLENT.

Then saw this JerryC guy. Damn zai. Remade Canon in D into rock version. Got famous in the net any many people from other country knew him and imitate him, composing their own rock version.

Here's his video!

!@#$%^&*()_+-=[]\{}|;':",./<>?

2006-11-06T23:29:00.000+08:00

Ok. I shall talk about all the computer nonsense I've received this week. First of all, IBM SUCK!!! Dun ever buy any IBM stuffs. You're just asking for trouble.

First, IBM's system sucks. It hangs like free and no tomorrow. I went to Nokia to fix my Handphone this week too, and yeah, NOKIA SUCKS TOO! The person there while serving me, the comp hanged. She den tell me that comp sucks big time, always like that one. No wonder, it's IBM.
IBM has got other problem too, dun want to mention anymore or this will never end.

Then my comp's fan spoiled, resulting in overheating of my motherboard. So go Sim Lim change. Ok, first, if your comp AUTO-RESTARTS or AUTO-SHUTDOWN for no real good reason, please open up the CPU and check the fan. I'm such and idiot and din't realize it. Fan spoil for 1month liao also dunno, then I thought the auto-restart was caused my a worm (which is possible too, so scan with anti-virus too).

So bo bian. Changed Motherboard, together with RAM and Graphics Card too. Then I was so happy, I go home with the damned CPU. Fuck, cannot switch on!! What the hell happened? I thought must got some damn bloody problem again, must bring it to the shop again. But then I lazy, so I opened it up myself and see what went wrong. And guess what.

That shop's idiot FORGOT to connect the POWER's wire to the MOTHERBOARD! What the hell lah! So important thing also can forget. Eat shit lah, gave me a freaking scare.

Dont know if anymore shit will come up anot. This week is so damn bloody suey, this spoil that spoil. Ahhgghh I've gotta go an re-install all my programs now. Tata.

Unlucky

2006-10-26T01:05:00.000+08:00

School
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Morning went to see Principal with friends. That slot was the "Conditional Promotion" slot, I really felt happy for them. I thought none of my friends retain. Then something really KNN happened. My friend's cher tell him wrong timing, he was supposed to be the "Retain" slot one. WT*?! Like that also can say wrong, make people happy for shit. They he sian diao 11 plus go home liao. -__-

Life and Random Stuffs
---------------------------

Fanny is so unlucky, at CCHS he had a classmate by the name of DuaQ, come TPJC got another classmate also like DuaQ. Poor thing.

On the way home I damn suey siao took this Bus 63. Inside got one siao Uncle. Take bus dun wan pay money and create trouble. At first I dunno. Then after a while the bus stopped. Got one SBS car came with 2 Inspectors. Den the Inspectors tell the driver he's a siao Uncle, not the first time liao. Wah lao wasted my 10min of rubbish.

Then my comp dunno what happened. Auto restart, then auto shut down. Cannot start Windows for 30min. Man, I thought my comp was a gonner, at this important period of time when OP and InR is pending. Heng after doing some set-up value fixing I was able to boot. Most probably got worm. JB say DONT EVER USE SERIALS FROM INTERNET! Sure got virus one. I used for Spyware Doctor. Suprisingly when I uninstalled it and scanned the drives no worms found. Must be that damn Spyware Doctor. Scared me to death. Arrgghh.

Today is really suey like hell. Must go pray pray do more good deeds liao, LOL!

What a Day.

2006-10-24T01:57:00.000+08:00

School

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Did not go to school today. Haha.

Life and Random stuff
---------------------------

Actually planned to watch Death Note this morning. But my friends are either having exams, school or working. Totally forgotten about it. Change of plan, watch it at night. So slept throught the morning, untill Angeline woke me up. Damn I'm having a sweet dream man. Yeah talk cork for a while before went to pig again till afternoon. Woke up at 3.30pm, and my classmates are having Econs Lecture! Haha.

Received a SMS about GP assignment. Damn, the holiday assignments are sure a hell lot.

Later in the night met Boss Yang and Steven. Watched Death Note together, but before that was laming at Toys'r'us. The most funny part was the gunshot when Naomi killed Shitori, most of the people there was shocked by the gunfire. What the hell! But is was very nice, especially the ending, how L SL Light. Looking forward to "The Last Name". The Insert Song "Manatsu no yoru no yume" was nice too. kept listening to it now.

Came home and talk nonsense with BoB. OP, OP, OP. Haiz. Write script later. And YEAH! Finally found my cursed ENTRY PROOF!!!!

Haha! Michelle likes to eat APPLE! Shinigami? Whateva la, crank. LOL.

Change of Blog Skin

2006-10-21T20:23:00.000+08:00

Life and Random Stuffs
----------------------------

Yeah, had a change of Blog Skin. Haha. このノットに名前を書かれた人間は、死ぬ。

Limit Break

2006-10-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

School
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Zai sia, today I solo GP lecture. The rest all go PW. Then Mr Ng was very disappointed. Haiz, made another good teacher piss off.

WR and OP finally finished. Come on man! I&R left and I can kiss my a$$ off PW. PW really sucks and OMG you know what? Miss Peh say MOE is gonna make this a OFFICIAL SUBJECT that the NIE will train teachers SPECIFICALLY to teach this idiotic subject. Waste the taxpayer's money only.

Lessons was like so DUH! these few days. Except our ever serious Chemisty Mr Lim's lessons, the rest is like talking cock with teachers, even Mr Ho learnt a few tricks from our lame lame Mr Koh.

Life and RANDOM stuffs
-----------------------------

Life got better, cox I sleep more soundly these few days. Not even my alarm clock is waking me. So means more "late for school" =X Who cares. Sweet dreams is more important, and I have so many lol and funny dreams this week. Haha hoping for more.

Today so paiseh. Evening Ms Peh use school number call me. I was eating out with friends, so I never see clearly the caller's number. Then I straight answer the phone and I say: "Ah, Meh Si?" LOL Ms Peh like stunned. LOL.

Sian.. Some of my friends retain. Got one even withdraw from school liao.. Haiz...

Aftermath of a long hiatus

2006-10-15T00:37:00.000+08:00

Oh wow. Hiatus eh? Just learnt this word from Hui Ning. Such a chim word. And dunno Anna is so into ppl's blog.. Nagging for updates lol.

School
--------

The damned promos are finally over. Barely made it. AACDEU. Haha. Din't study much, so cant expect much. Actually very good liao. A lot of ppl did badly sia, if JB and Pinoy retain den I sian diao liao sia. Wth.

After promo here comes PW. I guess I'm really sick of it. I know I've been acting like a big time jerk guys, but someone is forcing me to be a jerk. I know you cared for PW. But seriously, you cared too much. You are freaking Kiasu okay, you think I dont care about PW? Please, the hoard of shit was done by me, if I dont care I would have been a bastard and do nothing about it. I know what I am doing, please stop bugging me. Dont disturb my way of doing things.

1 Day 1 Draft? I think you need to send your brain to a Customer Service Centre. You dont need to sleep but Ms Peh needs. Ms Peh is not powered by a battery, nor you yourself is.

I know time is running out. But I know what to do. So dont so Kan Chiong about it. What's left is minor mistakes.

And come on. When it's the right time, you never do. When it's not the time to do, you did extra. And you did it without letting me know. Whatever, you just screwed my plans. Now I dont know what on Earth is going on with the WR. Anyways, THAT'S GREAT. I can finally take my ass off that seat and let you east on it all the while you want.

Give me a break I want please, I'm really going crazy.

You are calling me all day long. I'm so afraid to hear my phone ringing you know? I'm so afraid to see you name on my phone. I'm so afraid that the nudge I hear on MSN is from you. I'm so afraid that the new conversation pop-up is from you.

Seriously, I dont like spoon feeding. It's okay at times, really, I meant it. I dont mind to spoon feed people at times, cox I know at times people need it. I need to be spoon fed at times. But over doing it is gonna getting irritating. There's somethings that you can do it yourself. Somethings is already there and yet you still asked it from me. Cant you get it yourself? If you cant see it, so have an early sleep and do it tml. Really, dont burnt mid-night oil for it. It's a headache when you do that. I dont wish to receive calls and SMS at mid-night about work. And yet you still got the cheek to say "Be glad that I never call you at XX a.m." Damn, I really felt like killing you.

You really spoilt my day. You are making me crazy. You are making me feeling and acting jerk. Please, stop it. Save me from it. I jerked enough, dont make me jerk more.

That's all the long nonsense from me. As a sidenote, dont get offended by it. I dont meant to insult you or what, I just felt that I need to say it out. Or I'll really go crazy and banging the keyboard almost everytime I'm typing a msg to you.

Life

-------

Life? Nothing much happening though. Was in rather bad mood cox I got ****ed up by PW. I hope I can get PW over REAL SOON.

Damn, JB cannot go out. Haiz. Dunno how sia, I guess holidays is gonna get boring.

Oh yah, EAT MAC!! When are you gonna pass me the CDs? Say want pass to me from dunno when till now liao lehz. And remember to show me the Renunion files too. Hehe. And dont forget 19th OCT is Death Note release! Get more ppl going! Call Shin along also, then after that we can tok cork and of course tok about you and your Sabrina + E****N. Wahahahaha.

Just bought a CD today. Hmm.. Nice feeling. Many new piece to listen. Haha.

Haiz. I guess gotta do some Library stuffs liao. Totally cut off from Library during the promos. Must really go and pia liao sia. I guess I'm really a lousy President..

Yesterday had a nice talk with Jun. Hey girl, really thanks alot for being there always and hear me nag out. LOL! You're certainly the greatest. And of course all my other friends that had been supporting me and wishing me good luck. All of you really brightened my day, all the small things you've done and sad, I really appriciated it and liked it. All of you allowed me to move on and made me felt better from my crazy world and a crazy me.

And I's so sad Michelle dont have a bloggie. I thought I would be interesting to read your stories! Haha.

Yea, I've said enough. I would end off by saying a BIG SORRY to whoever I've offened during this 2 months and in this post. I think I just need a space to say it out. Yeah, gtg.

Okayy, time for update...

2006-09-25T21:39:00.000+08:00

Okayy lohz, got someone complain I post lyrics =p. Hehe

Actually hor, the FFVIII's promise was't there just because it is there, it has got meaning one..

School
---------

School? Getting more and more boring. I think I go school only talk and sleep only. Shaggy.

Life

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Very very shagged dunno why, just feel so like sleepy. Maybe because of my mood? Never had this shittish mood for like... 2 years ago? Just dunno why, it's getting shittish like what happened 2 years ago. Is it coming back? So many things happened these few months, I don't think I can hold that much longer. Really getting tired.

But thanks to my buddies and Mr Oh maybe I'll go a bit further. Maybe...

Maybe I'll become a Chinese Teacher someday. Somehow.

Random Stuffs
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Today damn stupid, wasted one whole day. Lessons today like so duh one.. After school go meet Cactus and Eat Mac. Talk nonsense till 7:30 p.m. So funny man Cactus, as retard as ever he is. As for Eat Mac, arrgghhh dun wan say, say also sad. Feel sad for him.. His life ah.. like forever chasing skirts.. Haiz..

Haha joking la.

2006-09-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me

Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper

How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then

I will know that you are no dreamer.

2006-09-13T21:26:00.000+08:00

I'll be here...

Why...?

I'll be "waiting"... here...

For what?

I'll be waiting... for you... so...

If you come here...

You'll find me.

I promise.

A Small Journey Back To The Past

2006-09-05T01:26:00.000+08:00

Okayy, since someone requested me to update, well I guess I have to? Hehe.

School
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As usual I'll kick things off with SCHOOL! Now is Holidays le. So no sch. Holidays is good, more time to sleep *oink*. But never go sch like also abit sian.. Like doin nothing at home like that, also dun have the feel to study like that lehz. Dunno how sia. I dun even know how many days left for Promos. LOL what kind of student am I?!

Okay lahz. AT LEAST, I filed up all the notes and arranged it. Easier to start off? But HOLY S***, the notes are so CLEAN!! Haha what am I gonna do? =p

LOL, people mugging for PROMOS, I'm mugging research papers for WRITTEN REPORT. WTH.

Still need go back sch for Library stuffs.. Arrgghh... Headache. Nvm lohz.. Go back can fill up all the blanks in my notes. Hehe.

I think better study liao. BETTER GET GOING LAHZ YOU LAZY BUM!!! Arrgghhh!!!!

Life and RANDOM stuffs
------------------------------

Oh holy hell. How I LOVE holidays and how I HATE them. Freedom must always come with SIAN-NESS? Basically rotting sia. Sleep long long, wake up le then PW PW PW or else surfing the net. TV was like so BORING, all the low quality shows.

Last week finally had the long waited DotA match. Playing the WTF mode and it was so damn bloody fun. Got play the dumb map "Poke the Angry Ogre" too.

And FINALLY met up our DEAR FARMER HUAN. So long never see him liao, tot he die while DragonBoating. MJ got so stress mehz.

Hmm.. Miss mahjong so much. So long never play liao.. Sian..

Speaking of mahjong, hey Boss Yang, when are we gonna get our Little Demonic Mahjong Gal? Seriously need some entertainment.

Waiting for tml's My Lovely Samsoon. Haha dumb but funny show. Looking forward to Wed and thurs' WWE and Jacky Wu's show. Also, I just realized that Discovery Channel and National Geographic shows are pretty nice also. It's quite entertianing to see how huge aircraft carriers are built, and how religious devotees go foodless and fluidless meditation for 66 years! Haha. I feel so old and nerd watching those stuffs. But who cares?

This whole week is like abit going back to the past like that.. Suddenly found many old friens. LOL and we keep chatting about all those past memories. Primary school and childhood stuffs too. The most funny part was talking about Michelle's childhood romance.

OOPS =X Hope Michelle dun see this or I guss I'm gonna get whacked by her police cane. HAHA.

Hmm.. So long never tok to Jun Jun liao. NIE busy ah? Hehe.

Wah write so long liao ahh.. So naggy.. Wahahahahahaha!!!

Fortune

2006-09-01T12:35:00.000+08:00

With Your Smile

2006-08-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

Ready, Steady, GO!

2006-08-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

School
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Sch was so zZz. Still very sleepy this week. At least better than last week. Not so jia lat.

Make ups and make ups. Norm days release so late liao, still wan make up.. Go home super late le lohz.. Den always zZz till 10p.m. like that in the end never do work.

Speaking of work. I think I'm gonna get sacked sooner or later. Never go CCA and do stuffs. =X

PW. Written Report haven EVEN started. Slack sia. MOH dun wan reply summore. ~!@#$%^&* Nvm, tml going to do liao. Hope can produce some work.

Monday still have Econs Test.. And that CURSED Maths DETENTION!! GP Reading Log due too.

Arrgghhh.. Really dunno what on Earth I'm doing in JC sia. Sleep, never do work, in the end understand nothing. Not really nothing lahz. Particually to Maths and last 3 chapters of Physics.

Dunno lohz.. I think better start to start my engine liao man. 20++ days to promo still dare to slack. "Haha later next year I plan Orientation for you ah!". Looks like my favourate phrase is gonna apply to me soon. Choy. Will buck up one.

Hmm. That phrase sounds nostalgic.

Anyways still must at least fufil my promise with her. So must work hard le lo. Arrgghh dun wanna get scolded by a future teacher!! =X

Life and Random Stuffs
---------------------------

Haha. Just realized that I'm so busy on fourms nowadays. Sch fourm, AkagiNet, TR UBB and my Guild's boards. Having a Guild War now so must constantly Online. Difficult to be in High Council sia, esp Leader and Co-Leader is not around. Too busy with work so I had to temp cover for the Guild and give orders.

I wonder if my enthu for this were put into sch work, will I get straight A's. Haha it's a different matter though.

Due to sch make ups long time havent met with the guys. How long since we banged those noobs online? Haha and the Saturdays usuals also. And we still haven buy our game too. SIANZ~

It seems chingie is havin some problem with her dad. Serious one? Like me too? Dunno if she's fine anot. Haven tok for quite sumtime liao. Too busy with revision for A's. Late go ask ask.

Something seems to hit in my head this month. Started to realized stuffs. Realization of the past. Then realization of the present. It's so suprising, when it's supposed not to be suprising at all, on how people's minds and thoughts change.

The rate at they are changing, too fast too furious. They can say this at this point of time, and totally go against it a little while later. Even I'm supseptible to such stuffs. I really hate it, and I dun wanna be in it.

I dont like people who change so fast in thinking. It's so scary. It confuses the people around and make them cautious towards you. I'm starting to fall into this trap too. I knew I cannot fall in to this. Someone save me please. =(

I guess I'm realizing things way too slow. Way too slow. It's such a thin line between an Angel and a Devil, and yet till now I then undertood the essence of that.

I wish one day I could sing the song "Amazing Grace". Though I'm not Christian and dont particularly like it, but it's the lyrics that matters:

[ Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wrench like me..
I once was lost, but now am found.. ]

The rest all forgot liao. Need go watch the J-Drama "Bai Se Ju Ta" then will know haha.

Need go prepare WR stuffs for tml liao. Haha I'm such a lousy Grp Leader. Makan Tayi lah!

Shaggy Week.

2006-08-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

Had been sleeping throughout the week. 70% of the lessons. Never felt my notes so clean HAHA. Dunno why this week so freaking tired.. Arrgghhh.. Can time stop now and let me sleep for 24hrs?

Anyways, today's usual. Go JB hse. B4 that was Econs test. Essay was Jia Lat never do finish. But think can score for BE Insights. Dunno lahz. Bought last Vol. of Death Note. Bloody hell Light die. No fun at all lahz, bad ppl always die. Can let good ppl die FOR ONCE?! Have something new mahz. BORING~

DINNER was DISASTER. WTH! Here's the ingredient:

5 Different packets of Korean noodles.
1 Can of (Dunno wad) meat.
8 Egg whites.
16 Egg yolks.

4 Persons servings. Prepared by our Dear Chef JB Tan. Arrgghh.. Reminds me of Canteen food. =(

2006-08-10T00:59:00.000+08:00

Rie Fu's "Until I Say". Haha dunno y attracted to such songs. Maybe getting old liao hehe.

Hooked!

2006-08-08T01:22:00.000+08:00

Koda Kumi's new single "I'll be there". I'm so hooked to this song now. And she's hot!

Stupid Weekend

2006-08-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

Saturday
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Went to BOTANIC GARDEN straight after DotA-ing. Did you hear it? It's BOTANIC GARDEN!! I cant believe it man, I'm going there with a bunch of guys. That stupid idiot lahz.. Choose wad project need to take pictures of 101 different flowers. Go there and lost our way cox some joker misread the map.. Go there feed mosquito and stare at the $2.60 per can coke..

Haiz. Service Learning still need to go there AGAIN. NOOOOOOO!!!!

Sunday

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Went to CUT HAIR.. He Fan, hear it? It's one of your favorite phrase, CUT HAIR!! But we never EAT MAC though. So sad for you. Yea, went to Parkway to buy clothes. That Joo Bong bought a Mickey Mouse T-Shirt. Wearing it to school on Tues. Haha I wonder will ppl laugh? Went to Samuel and Kevin bought a shirt. Long time never buy clothes liao. Hehe.

Watched The Great American Bash after that. Waste of money. All stupid matches.

Then went home. Heard a bad news. But it seems not totally bad to me too. At least I see something good in it. If that bad news come true, I can dun need to see him liao. No need to see this F***ed up attitude. No more second hand smoke. No more nonsense.

"Guess who I really wanna Omnislash at the moment?" That's He Fan's MSN nick.

I asked myself this. If I could, that not the person who created PW. Not the people who made Nic chant Sutra. It's him. That F***ing bastard. You call him a Uni Grad? F*** off. Go eat shit, lick my boots and kiss my candy coated ass. He's worse off than an uneducated hooligan. Villain instead I suppose.

Forgive me for all the swearing, but he's one of those EXTREME F***ING FAGGOTS living in this world. Girls, beware of him, and HATE HIM. He's the enemy of ALL Women in this world. A disgrace of Mankind.

Worry not, I'll not let him off this easy. After I've gotten my goals, I shall pass my judgment on him. That day will surely come. The Ultimate End for him. Hmm why I keep using the word him? He isn't even Human. Inhumane beast.

Fine. Stay there and wait for me, and meanwhile, don't die. I say don't die. Until you get your rightful punishment from US.

Hear that, you bastard?!

Investiture is FINALLY OVER!!

2006-08-03T01:45:00.000+08:00

Investiture

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Haha. Yes it's finally over. Finally can relax abit eh? No more calls from 6******* during lessons! HAHA. Nvm, the Investiture was fun though it screwed up abit at first. Hehe. I think my speech is damn lame LOL. Nvm I'll do better when I step down. Food was nice too, and the fun of Ji Siao-ing He Fan during the shopping trip. Thanks to all those who contributed to Investiture 2006!

Random Stuffs
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LOL blogging at 1:46 a.m? I must be crazy. Tml still got that shaggy badminton sia. Haiz. Must wear my -GOD- class shirt Hehe. Fine. Lame. Anyways, nowadays not so sleepy liao. Start to understand Physics and can do Maths. Feel like starting to go on the right track to Promos liao. Good sign? I hope so. Haha. Want go pigging liao. Tml wanna have fun with badminton. HAHA!

Hmm. Felt some sense of achievement.

2006-07-29T00:35:00.000+08:00

Maths
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LOL! Finally can do some maths tutorial. Haha like this happened in once in a million like that. But got one whole chunk of careless mistakes ahh.. Must buck up liao. I guess this is retribution sia, copying maths since Sec 3. =X

EoM
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Peh said I did well for evaluation. Now only need to generate a few more ideas den can say sayounara to EoM liao. LOL first draft can clear 50% the feeling so SONG man! Previously all those PI and GPP shit takes so long to clear. HAHA.

Library
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Lol today Jasmine passed me the Invitation Cards. zZz it was so poorly done sia, I dun even dare to issue it out. Bo bian must call Batman's partner Mr Robin Yong to help. Borrowed a colour jet printer and a paper cutter. Asked He Fan to help out abit and it's Invitation Card reborn! LOL nice work done in an hour. Cannot believe it sia! Mr Yong was also surprised HAHA. Jeffrey said I'm a perfectionist. No lohz, it's just that the basic sense of quality must be there right?

Now only left Certificates havent print yet. Den go get gifts and do finalization of programme den it's the end of the long Investiture nightmare liao. Investiture is like Mana Burn like that, totally drained my HP and MP. Almost no energy liao practically falling asleep at every lesson for this week!

Overview
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Hmm. Though less work but still a lot of work. So freaking sad. Econs got SiEaS Presentation, Essay and BE Insight. ALL NEXT WEEK HOLY COW! Then this weekend still got gift shopping and interviewing. Buey tahan sia. Later afternoon still have my weekly routine - Go demolish JB's house! Arrgghh.. Should have gone poly. YH that faggot like so free at TP like that sia.. Den I at TPJ here working like a bull like that. Haiz.

Need some sleep liao. Tata.

Happy Day

2006-07-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

Todae sch went well. SPE kena punished LOL! 120 pumping, 400m run in 2min and 20 sit ups. That's what you got when you are late by 2mins 20sec. Haiz. But badminton was fun. Hardly ever exercised this much. Long time never moved my ass so much. Haha but the feeling is good. Nowadays feel so sleepy, keep sleeping in class. I guess I havta exercise more or I'll start to rot!!

PW is finally getting moving towards Written Report. That's what I though at first. At school. But guess what?! Jerome that idiot screwed the survey!! No more survey now cox it EXPIRED. Damn you lahz Jerome. Tml I make sure u this Bob oscillate at 1000 oscillations per second!! Tml still need to re-do interview again. Stupid ambulances and SCDF. So troublesome one. Arrgghh..

FINALLY DONE EoM!! Feel SoOoOoOoOo GREAT!!

SiEaS finally done my part. Now need to take pictures and do finalizations!

Found My Date With A Vampire 3 OST and Tamaki Nami's 3rd Album Speciality!! YEAH SoOoOoOoOo freaking happy!!

Now go do Maths Tutorial liao. Promos coming le must be good boy liao. Hehe. =p

A day filled with JOY, but disrupted with PISSES.

2006-07-25T00:22:00.000+08:00

Joy - Sea Sports Carnival.

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Yeah. SSC was so much fun. Though we did not win the Championship, we won third. LOL the day was filled with so much joy and rowdyness. Screaming, cheering, kp-ing, monkeying and sabo-ing. Many funny moments also, when Kok Swee, Zac and Victor kena gang bang and got their balls knocked on the tree. Den still got that Gifford capsizing the mini-dragonboat. Then later went Mac eat. LOL Zac dropped 2 sets of meals. Haiz wasted.

Later took bus home with Kok Swee, Jun Yi and Da Jie. Wth my HP keep ringing lahz, all about Library. Haiz.

Then called Dora ask her send pic. Alamak sia, borrow camera from Sis WITHOUT the CABLE!! JOKE!! Arrgghhh..

HAHA. Last but not least, apart our 3rd in 24-crew interclass dragonboat race, we won FIRST for CLASS TEE!! HAHA.

PISSES

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OMG. This is HOLY DUMB OKAY?! Stop treating me like an retard with an IQ value below 75 OKAY?! Stop giving me all those rubbish excuses and low class comments. Damnmit. Damn you. Spoil my happy day.

Random Stuffs

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LOL looks like Hui Ning is also sick of all those rubbish too. Humph. And she link my blog as "President Ngeow". Wah lao, I know it's politically correct lahz, but can put something nicer? Look so formal and dumb lehz wahahaha.

Class fourm is getting spammed like siao. 30mins of offline, 43 NEW POSTS! Then when you reply the latest post, you will see your post number is not the number you expected. The number is larger by 5, which meant that 5 new replies are made while you are typing. It seems that the class is pressing the F5 button sia.. Receving replies calculated in SECONDS.

And I still haven design the Library Jacket yet. Darn tml 10am need to submit liao. Maths tutorial also haven do. Worse is EoM, first draft also haven do. Arrgghhhh.......

"Do you know what disappointment is?" - Quoted from Mr Koh.

2006-07-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

Yeah, do you know what disappointment is?

Hmm. Maybe I start to know. Maybe..

I'm not talking about that Maths Drama lahz. It's just that it hurts to know that those person that you cared the most doesnt care about you.

It's just plain stupid. It's like those people took your care for granted. They forgets. And I hate it when people tells me that they dont care or they forgets.

I hate when people only knows how to demand for outputs and hardly even gave any inputs. I hate it when I do things for nothing. Cox I dun like to do things for nothing, as I believed that when one receives somthing, he or she should do the same too. At least some input right? Basic courtesy isn't it.

That's my basic principle. And I hates myself for breaking it sometimes. I really hate it when I cant even follow my own principles. Sometimes I felt that it cant be helped. However I hate to hear things like "it cant' be helped", "it's/i'm like that one lahz". It make me hate myself even more.

Haiz. It just sucked isnt it? That's why I say I start to know what Mr Koh meant. What "disappointment" meant.

What do you do in times like this? Stressed? Depressed? I do admit I have felt this way, but I dont want to. I dont want to be that loser from CCHMS. I dont wanna be the same class as him.

So what you do when you hate things and yourself so much. Self-destruction? I guess I practically did that isn't it? Ended up getting disliked and ignored.

"It cant be helped"? My heart is keep calling me to self-destruction. It's like a normal reaction to it that is beyond my control. And I hate it. I start to know the feeling of people saying "It cant be helped", "I'm just like that". Yeah I started to understand..

I've said and done hurtful things. It was done when people went against my principle and I was too selfish to spare a thought for them.

Can sin be forgiven?

I wish to be forgiven. Yes, I want to be forgiven. But by who?

Haiz forget about it. No one would even to bother to enlighten me what I've done wrong and what's wrong with me. Nevermind, life has to go on.

Anyways, I'm saying all these things cox of something happened today. It totally evoked all these long supressed feeling in me. It's still locked inside me.. How I wish that I could let go all of them.. I really feel like giving up something now and go for a break, a runaway..

Haiz forget about it lahz. Say more sad more. For every minute you are angry/sad, you lose 60 seconds of happiness. That's what Michelle said. Haha.

Anyways, today still not so bad lahz. Thanks to my buddies again. they always saved the day man. Today ate lunch together. Toopid JB forgot today his grandfather death annivesary need go offer joss stick. Make us waited haha. Then later went HMV find their Twins CD. That toopid JB again. Speak Mandrin to the Malay couter girl! Her face was like "Har, wth you toking?". So damn funny sia. Later in the evening playing mahjong even more funny. That JB AGAIN. Win already, then blur blur played a tile. Then never win. Worse off, that card made me win the game. LOL. Me and YH luff till wanna die sia.

After that went CO concert. Quite nice. LOL it's really shocking that an uncivilised person like me knows how to appriciate arts. HAHA.

Yeah, going sleep liao. Need a runaway now. HAHA.

2006-07-20T19:21:00.000+08:00

Stupid sia, ysd blogger.com was down. Cannot blog. =(

Anyways, these 2 day so suck. Ysd Library Ex-Co meetings. Only 4 came WTH!! Vice-President was sick so I'm having a hard time. All my agenda is with her. Haiz. But thing went well, Investiture planning completed. Now need to carry it out!

Then came some chatting wif Yang Hao. OMG we 2 had just released a new AI Map, with the latest AI script. The name is:

DotA-Allstars 6.3x AI Dynamic LIVE.w3x

Yes, It's dynamic, it's LIVE!! LIVE!! It talks and answers to you!

Anyone interested to try?

Then comes today. OMG. Hui Ning forgot to tell me the new time for Investiture. See lahz, make me look so stupid. "Due to some miscommunications.. blah blah blah.." Haha dunno Ms Lee see liao will say what?

And kena tio piang by Ms Idah. Racial Harmony display. Humph.

Okay lahz, partially my fault too. But dunno tml can make it anot. Die lahz.. Still got what National Day march past. WTH! Has anyone of you heard about ONE CONTINGENT with FOUR COLOURS?! NPCC, NCC (Air, Land Sea) TOGETHER?! When I heard that from Nicholas I gave up on it. Pontang.

Inter-House Soccer. HAN RUI is the MAN sia, best keeper of the year. Act monkey go hang on the movable goal post and make it collaspe. LOL! What a pity I wasnt there. Laughed like siao when I heard bout it.

Haiz, havta go do Maths tutorial again. And plan for tml's meeting. Haha.

2006-07-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

Haha!! Wow couldnt believe it. Blog created in 3 hours @ blogspot.com! I always avoided blogspot due to the HTML codes.. So troublesome.. Haha.

But luckily got that Steven teach me. Anything dunno ask him he can straightaway answer as if he had memorized all the codings. LOL! *Thanks*

And mind you Steven, I'm NOT Bird Rui OKAY!! I'm kind enough not to put you as "si di fen (floor cleansing powder)" so dun Ji Siao me kkie. Haha.

Yeah. Must go do Chemistry tutotial liao, or else tml will drama again like today. Wah Mr Koh super pissed sia. Scary.