Stupid jigsaw puzzles and curfew boy! =( but thumbs up to pizzas =D

And some stupid ppl who think she's the big shot want to mess around with stuffs. She'd better not man.

Talked to Amelia today. Haha. Dunno why talked about that to reminded me of something sweet but painful.

23rd Jan - 23rd Feb. Thanks to those people who were with me in this period. A period of events that probably shook my life like an earthquake. I'm still confused if the change was good or bad.

That unexplainable feeling, almost like the day of October 3 years ago, at that nostalgic hill. I missed it and the days before it. I really missed it badly. So badly that sometimes it makes me want to die.

If and only if..

But I guess I'm climbing back, and kena tied up by heavy crap workload that was supposed to bring me back to reality, but instead made me almost forgot the feeling of reality.

Sometime, I really want a break and wonder what I'm doing now. Why I worked so hard for things. Is it because I wanted it to be or?

What is real and what not. I guess I won't have the chance to think and realize it for a period of time till some time later.


This moment, this chilly windy night. 11:36pm as I typed the time in this sentence, I dunno what to write any more. I can't even describe this feeling now. It's like as if time has stopped, and your mind just want to space out and wonder everywhere, probably to the histories of the past or even the eternity of the future, even you were to plunge into such thoughts like into a black hole and never the chance to emerge from the event horizon again. I'd willingly plunge into it. I guess I haven't forgot the gravity of reality after all, grounding me back to this world that I possibly don't wanna be for the time being.

*shrugs*

Havta make my uniform later. Don't really like moving from this computer chair of mine. It means moving back to reality. Back to the bed. Back to sleep, and follow and other day of standard JC student routine.

That green uniform that I've worn for 1 year exact now. So much memories in it. And what's the meaning of that uniform?

I guess. I'm getting random.

What the heck I'm doing now, typing such an emo and random post at this hour.